March 2023 Update

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Seriously, I need to think of some kind of template for the beginning of these posts. No matter when and how I approach, it often starts with me hitting a wall. I'm starting early yet again in hopes I would be ready in cases I get busy. Hopefully, it doesn't mean I would have to rewrite everything closer to publication date a lot of things have changed since when I started (February 24th; Way too soon, I know) and later on. Unless I'm just overreacting, since I don't recall this happening before.

Either way, upcoming updates are like to be less interesting than previous ones. Not just because Ilko's Hall Anniversary is a yearly thing, but because it's that time of the year when things slow down for the blog and myself in a certain way. I think that enough time has passed to see how this month would go.

Irritable Procastination.

It's getting really hard, and I definitely need to stop with posts. Funny how around a year ago I had a lot of ideas for posts of all Categories, but right now I really struggle to come up with one or recall what I had in mind at that time. Again, there's no need to be that consistent. After all, it was all part of the plan. Hall already went back to "maintaince mode" after Rune "article". There's another nonsensical wall of text coming out later today about my stupid ideas for MCU's Spider-Man and nothing else. Perhaps there would be another Minecraft's Patch 1.20 post in case Mojang Studios announced its actual name and release date. I'll see and comment on it later on if something like that does happen.

There're so many opportunities nowadays, but it's very hard to say what is actually possible for you in specific time and space. Not talking about the latter in physical sense, but also mental. In moments of reflections like this, I often end up punching down myself because people were and are being successful at their creativity in worse states of mind and circumstances, older hardware (current at the time, but still) and many more variables that would take too much time to mention. At the same time, my mind likes the "there're so many better things you could be doing right now instead of whatever you're thinking about right now" kinds of monologues. I think I mentioned in some previous Update or other Personal "article", more than once likely. Makes you wonder how someone reading all of these posts would react to repetitions. Nobody reads it though. No pressure on that front.

How do I defeat myself? Clearly, I must break the cycle anew for my own good. Pick another path to follow and see where it leads me, whenever it's a total failure or mild success. Perhaps I should just lean into these weird rumblings and "ironic self-berating" no matter how unhealthy it could be in the long run. There's a great format and direction for such approach that's currently unfeasible for me and I might have to wait until July for it to be more plausible and only if I'm being overly hopeful. Redirecting your creative output can be hard even if you realize that it's there hitting a wall. Maybe I should challenge myself with short stories or something similar, either here or somewhere else. Although I feel like I should go in completely different direction that doesn't involve writing walls of text... Yeah, I definitely talked about that before more than once. I am a lost cause.

Everything Else.

It was a great start in other directions though. I went back to watching Spider-Man: The Animated Series, going through third and fourth seasons. It was fun, interesting and sometimes surprising as I think there were some episodes I haven't seen back in a day. Maybe I just forgot about them, but I really doubt it... I think I've seen "The Spot" once, but "Rocket Racer" and "Prowler"? Nah, they have to be new to me. Not sure if that also implies to The Lizard King which I perceived as a subtle teaser of Spider-Man Unlimited. Will wait until after rewatching the last season for overall verdict. I've also revisited Ocean's trilogy: all three 2000 films, not the original or latest spin-off. Very classy, hilarious and all about true friendship. These movies are definitely a product of its time, you can just feel it and that makes them that much more enjoyable.

Now I'm coming back to this post after an urgent break (March 7th; not too early now) and everything still holds up. Had to redirect my attention to good old gig. Because of that, I had to miss out on my chance to meet with some friends as I've chosen to be more responsible instead. There was a slight change in workflow(?) and it got pretty ridiculous not in fun way, so everything went slow and messy. My approach to copywriting stuff has always been just getting the job done and don't argue about details (unless I really have to), but some topics for these articles are so stupid. At least I'm done with it, for now (for a couple of days, actually). It was (still is) a cursed process and I mean it because my laptop went through some worrisome technical difficulties. This gave me some food for thought and I think that's a good thing. My sleep schedule is also kind of destroyed again, so I definitely have something to think about when I can't fall to sleep.

Maybe I should look into what "Windows Boot Manager Tool Failed" actually means because getting that thing after sudden Blue Screen of Death wasn't nice. Laptop is apparently back to its usual self and only a few minor issues came up afterwards, but nothing as drastic. However, it is one more reason as to why I didn't get to playing any games this month. My plans are still completing the rest of Minecraft: Bedrock Edition achievements and start the first Stardew Valley playthrough, but a combination of aforementioned nonsense pushed them back for a while. Maybe later, hopefully. Anyway, I need to make sure that dorky Spider-Man post is ready for publishing shortly after this one.